1 Week and Counting

Well... a week from today... by this time I will be holding Gunner in my arms! What an amazing feeling to know that he will finally be here.
I of course have things I'm worried about and all I can do is pray that my Father in Heaven will be watching over and keep both of us safe.  I know the recovery for a c-section is not easy and I am not looking forward to the possibility of having complications.  I know with my weight the possibilities are greater and it worries me.

I am trying to not get worked up yet it seems since I found out I'm having a c-section I have had a rush of emotions. I find I cry a lot easier and my gag reflexes are back in full swing.  I worry about Gunner. I hope that even though he will be a big baby that he will not have any complications, that he will be tall like his daddy and that he will be the best of me and the best of Derek.   If at all possible I would love for him to come on his own this week but if not at least I know Saturday at the latest. 

As you can tell I am a bit jumbled when it comes to my thoughts.  I can't seem to keep my thoughts straight.  There's a lot going on and a lot to think about...  I'm trying not to stress but it seems that's what I'm best at...